30HBC1924: imprint

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a few days after we left each other, i wish i could take back every mean word i've said to you. i wish i could take back every accusations, every hurt things i've said in the heat of moment. but more than that, i wish i didn't miss you this much.

a few weeks after we left each other, i could barely go to someplace we've been to together before. i could barely visit our favorite park, eat at our frequently visited restaurant. it feels like you were there too. but i know it was not like that, because i know you've left this town; left me behind.

a few months after we left each other, i could finally text you back when you asked about my life. i could walk around the city without your ghost hanging around. but sometimes, i wish we could go back to what we were before. but i know that right now, i'm not good for you and you are not good for me.

a few years after we left each other, i could finally make a new memory with someone else without erasing what we had before. i could finally smile at your text, congratulate you on your new chapter in life. because i know we met each other for some reasons, and that i learn so many things about myself when i'm with you.

(Image from a masterpiece, Imaginary City by Rain Chudori, page 104)

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Originally post at IG for @30haribercerita #30haribercerita #30HBC1924 #anotherselfreflect 

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p.s: i apologize for some weird grammar going on bcs this is not beta-read