[16/11/19, 07.02 local time]
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"Because the dawn right
before the sun rises is the darkest,
even in the far future
never forget the you of right now,
wherever you are right now,
you’re just taking a break,"
--Tomorrow, BTS.
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this year taught me what its like to feel very afraid you cannot speak, you cannot think, you feel nauseous, you choked up everytime you take a breath. what its like to feel empty you just lay in bed all day and night without care. to have an empty mind and hollow heart.
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but this year also reminded me what its like to laugh out loud, to feel very happy you can touch the sky, to smile so bright it brought tears to your eyes. to have your heart lighten up, to feel proud of yourself, to yell 'i finally did it!'.
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another year full of being on the top of the world but also on the bottom of the ocean. of being on a rollercoaster we called life, just being there for the ride and pray for the best. of learning about oneself even at the edge of a phase, about what is right and what is wrong and finding the silver lining. of falling in love and heartbreak and everything in between.
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thank you. this year is officially the last of my college year. thank you for the four years. see y'all soon.
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(still, if you ask whether or not i still feel the same, the answer is just like last year
so
yes
but i'm moving on, i am
or i will)
